lifeas_myself's Xanga

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 03:45:46 GMT

i could only say a few words ... im in love with someone who will never love me in return ... the worst feeling for any person in this world to feel ! its a feeling worse then death .

all i can do is listen to the music that reminds me of jl <3

is it love - iiO

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 13:57:27 GMT

omg someone knows. Someone from school. And I feel so free she actually knows. About how I feel about certain people, our conversations, smiles at each other, what their wearing. I just can't wait for everyone else to know. That however will take along time to happen. Someone people just can't know so that's why I'm going to wait until senior year. Back to the person, not that one who knows, but the person I care about. I feel like a 6th grader about this person. Its only because I've never experienced this before. Everytime I see them I smile and I take the long walks to class to see them, I go all the way around the halls to see them. UGH people would call it an obsession but I call it love. We have random conversations on aim which I save and send to my phone so I can read them over and over again. In person we spoke a few times and its ver ackward, I get all nervous and stutter I can't look into their eyes even though I want to. JL the greatest initials ever! The sexiest name. UGH I'm such a loser. Well I'm listening to iiO which is putting me to sleep so ill update with more news. 11:11 <3

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 23:49:08 GMT

So yeah SATs were this morning. It was honestly the hardest test I've taken. The only easy section was the essay, however it was the first section. My tension was high and I was unable to think. The essay was about "fitting in" or be unique. I went completely off topic. The other sections were extremely hard and I honestly left the majority blank. Why would they base you future on a god damn test.

The previous week I've been doing my HSPAs. I don't know if they were hard or if they were easy. It was kind of in the middle. I'm just embarassed to say so because everyone else found them really easy.

I'm going to start reading novels, memiors, short stories, and etc. I'm also going to start practices SAT vocab words. Also take some math review courses. This will help to prepare for the June and September SAT.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 19:51:48 GMT

I had HSPAs today they were really hard. i expected them to be easy because of the upper classmen. they all said it would be easy, however we were the first class to take the science portion. like what the fuck is a red star and why would i need to know it for wut profession i want to be! but im over it hopefully i pass just so i can graduate and finish this horrible school year.

<<sidenote>> this chinesse food is amazing...hong kong is great at what they do.

The SATs is around the corner, literally! saturday i take them for my frist time. i did a few practice questions for english, got 9 right out of 15 arent i amazing. NOT. im so scared if i fail them, i know i can retake them but colleges see all the grades :/

im going to redo my myspace and xanga is kinda wack, no one reads it!

Monday, February 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 06:26:33 GMT

Laying in bed...I was wondering about my xanga, how its been forever since I've logged in and updated. Well I'm alive and still the same, however I've died my hair blonde. It look hot. I've gained alittle weight, I actually feel fat because u ate a slice and a half of pizza past 12am. I guess I am anorexic but I can't help it, I don't want to be fat. I'm tanner since christmas. I <3 tanning. Its winter break in school so me and my friends decided to get drunk everynight, although I missed tonight. I'll try to finish every other day. Ugh I really do feel fat. I hate food so much. K well I'm going to go to sleep because I'm tired.

merry christmas

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 04:22:29 GMT

I wish this was a merry christmas for me. However, its not because my parents don't celebrate meaning us children don't celebrate either. I feel upset about this I always feel left out when its back to school after winter vacation. All the kids have their new expensive gifts their parents were convinced to get them. I have nothing, and I can't remeber if when I was younger that I received gifts, who knows. I feel as though my parents didn't really relay their choice of not celebrating on religion but on the fact that they are cheap and "poor". Ugh this holiday I hate it, I become so envious, sad, and confused.

MERRY CHRISTMAS<3

Monday, December 04, 2006

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 22:05:47 GMT

i recently signed up for this modeling thing.
MY NEW CRACKBERRY! i <3 it

Monday, July 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 06:46:11 GMT

this life is just filled with choices
but sometimes i think too much
there are too many choices
WTF DO I DO

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 03:55:49 GMT

fuck you

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:14:28 GMT

you were supposed to be my left leg
you lied you chose him
he will ruin your life
like im going to
you kill our relationship
say goodbye to your brother and say hello
TO THE DEVIL!