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| i could only say a few words ... im in love with someone who will never love me in return ... the worst feeling for any person in this world to feel ! its a feeling worse then death . all i can do is listen to the music that reminds me of jl <3
is it love - iiO | | |
| omg someone knows. Someone from school. And I feel so free she actually knows. About how I feel about certain people, our conversations, smiles at each other, what their wearing. I just can't wait for everyone else to know. That however will take along time to happen. Someone people just can't know so that's why I'm going to wait until senior year. Back to the person, not that one who knows, but the person I care about. I feel like a 6th grader about this person. Its only because I've never experienced this before. Everytime I see them I smile and I take the long walks to class to see them, I go all the way around the halls to see them. UGH people would call it an obsession but I call it love. We have random conversations on aim which I save and send to my phone so I can read them over and over again. In person we spoke a few times and its ver ackward, I get all nervous and stutter I can't look into their eyes even though I want to. JL the greatest initials ever! The sexiest name. UGH I'm such a loser. Well I'm listening to iiO which is putting me to sleep so ill update with more news. 11:11 <3 | | |
| So yeah SATs were this morning. It was honestly the hardest test I've taken. The only easy section was the essay, however it was the first section. My tension was high and I was unable to think. The essay was about "fitting in" or be unique. I went completely off topic. The other sections were extremely hard and I honestly left the majority blank. Why would they base you future on a god damn test.
The previous week I've been doing my HSPAs. I don't know if they were hard or if they were easy. It was kind of in the middle. I'm just embarassed to say so because everyone else found them really easy.
I'm going to start reading novels, memiors, short stories, and etc. I'm also going to start practices SAT vocab words. Also take some math review courses. This will help to prepare for the June and September SAT. | | |
| I had HSPAs today they were really hard. i expected them to be easy because of the upper classmen. they all said it would be easy, however we were the first class to take the science portion. like what the fuck is a red star and why would i need to know it for wut profession i want to be! but im over it hopefully i pass just so i can graduate and finish this horrible school year. <<sidenote>> this chinesse food is amazing...hong kong is great at what they do. The SATs is around the corner, literally! saturday i take them for my frist time. i did a few practice questions for english, got 9 right out of 15 arent i amazing. NOT. im so scared if i fail them, i know i can retake them but colleges see all the grades :/ im going to redo my myspace and xanga is kinda wack, no one reads it! | | |
| Laying in bed...I was wondering about my xanga, how its been forever since I've logged in and updated. Well I'm alive and still the same, however I've died my hair blonde. It look hot. I've gained alittle weight, I actually feel fat because u ate a slice and a half of pizza past 12am. I guess I am anorexic but I can't help it, I don't want to be fat. I'm tanner since christmas. I <3 tanning. Its winter break in school so me and my friends decided to get drunk everynight, although I missed tonight. I'll try to finish every other day. Ugh I really do feel fat. I hate food so much. K well I'm going to go to sleep because I'm tired. | | |
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